Sunday, February 06, 2011
{ 7:41 AM }
Sometimes I feel that I'm not good enough as a friend.
I don't make an effort to keep in contact with my good friends until one by one they start to leave the country.
I don't make an effort to wish my good friends happy birthday even on facebook.
I don't make an effort to meet up my good friends even though we are no longer in the same school.
Because I don't make an effort, we start to drift further and further apart until we no longer talk to each other. I realized how bad a friend I am. I regret. I regret not trying to meet up with those people who shared my sorrows, fears, worries and happiness.
I'm sorry for not trying. Or maybe I am trying, but not trying hard enough. I promise to try harder. I'm going to fix those broken relationships and continue those that are still there.
To my dear friend who probably is already on the plane on your way to Aussie: Thank you so much for always being there for me. I will really really miss you a lot. You and your company. May you do well in your studies. But must remember to play hard and study hard ok? I'll email you as much as possible, and that's a promise. I am quite sure you won't be reading this though.
And whenever I listen to this song, I'll think about you and our broken friendship. It's my fault. I shouldn't have avoided you and stuff. You did not do anything to hurt me, but protected and cared for me. Yet, I hurt you. What did I do? Precisely because I didn't do anything and treated you like some monster. I'm so sorry. You're pitiful enough with those broken ties and why must I, why should I add on to your sorrow. I know I'm such a bitch and now I'm so sorry. But I guess I can't do anything to fix anything. I just wanted to say I'm sorry.
Gosh, those psychology things must have gotten into my brain.
